Friday, December 28, 2007
Friday, December 21, 2007
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
The nightmare came along in the same way it always does - there is a baby that I was supposed to be caring for, and I have let it go without eating - and am frantic to find it. I actually got out of bed, pulled off my c-pap mask somehow - and ended up in the closet - that is when I woke up that is where I determined I was. My c-pap machine was turned completely around on the table, so I must have given it a good jerk. My bed was such a mess, with pillows and covers everywhere except where they were supposed to be.
Needless to say, I didn't not sleep too well...and started the day with a big yawn!
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Friday, December 14, 2007
Thursday, December 13, 2007
Mrs. Shelton's funeral will be Saturday morning at 10, and the choir is going to sing, as is her granddaughter, Heather. Should be very nice. K asked me and Alison to be at church for the family lunch afterwards, so we will be glad to do so.
Mrs. Shelton raised such a nice family. They are so loving and caring, and I can see where she had a hand in most of that.
Monday, December 10, 2007
Friday night...Cantata @ 7:30. Went fairly well except the director brought us in too early on one song. I did not stay to visit too much. Karen and Lauren watched from the balcony...and K said Alison and I 'made her proud' with our "Go Tell It" motion!
Saturday...headache all day long...managed to do some laundry and lay on the couch. Cantata at 6:00...went ok, this time a CD skipped around and we had to restart one song. Mom & Dad enjoyed it, though Ryan told them it started at 7, so they only saw 30 minutes. Saw Nate and his sister in the back...then got an email from Connie that she and Randy were there, but I didn't see them.
Karen's mom is getting worse. It could be any day now. Sunday was busy too, with Karen singing "Jesus Loves Me" for her great niece's baptism (during which I cried like a baby), then I taught SS so K could go home and get ready for the lunch, then spend time with her family. More singing at the youth home Sunday afternoon...and for a while, I thought I would be the only alto...thank goodness another came...so our numbers were few...but the kids enjoyed it. It sure turned cold here...and about time! Now if it will quit misting rain...and the gray sky would clear up a little....gee, not too much to ask is it???
The boys are in Disney world, visiting Mickey for a few days. Hope they are having fun.
Saturday, December 8, 2007
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Monday, December 3, 2007
Friday, November 30, 2007
Thursday, November 29, 2007
The mother of a dear friend was diagnosed with terminal cancer yesterday, and not expected to survive much longer...they are hoping until Christmas...but it looks bleak. She is so weak, but still can be coherent and joke a little bit with us. The whole family is in shock understandably, but trying to be brave for her. She is quite the talented lady and has raised such a loving family with a strong faith in God. You never leave the house (or the church, or anywhere else they might be) without a hug!!
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Work is.....work......is......work. Looking forward to being off at some point.
We have our 'crazy' cantata practice tonite, where we attempt to drive the choir director right up the wall with our antics. So much fun!
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
So, the tree is not up, the gifts are not wrapped, no decorations are out...so I am behind...BUT...
my blog is up to date!!
Monday, November 26, 2007
Seems I'll be assuming the CCBW role for the moment...or the CCBWFS...(chief cook bottle washer floor scrubber)....until something else happens...I'll be sweeping up the crumbs...but thats ok...I'll handle it. We'll actually sit down and come up with a plan in writing later this week...so for now....off we go!
Wee wee wee wee!
Sunday, November 25, 2007
The cantata performance was a success. All the members spoke to us and were so appreciative that we traveled to sing for them. I am thankful that my friend drove and we all had a lot of fun.
Wondering what tomorrow will bring....
Saturday, November 24, 2007
Friday, November 23, 2007
Black Friday for retailers all
The biggest day of the shopping year
And everyone heads to the mall
Up before sunrise and out the door
Go the shoppers from young to old
Often waiting for stores to open,
Find that gift and mark it 'sold'!
Not me, no way, no how, uh-uh
I'm not joining that spending spree
I'll stay tucked in bed awhile
And consider leftover turkey!
After twenty-plus years on the retail
Side of the counter, no one could pay
Me enough to fight the clerks & crowds
On the day after Thanksgiving day!!
Hope you had fun, with sleep in your eyes
As the store displays you perused
And headed home with sacks and boxes
As I layed in bed and snoozed!
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Should somehow be more
Than the turkey and dressing
That we all adore
As we sit down to dinner
And comfortably graze
Lets remember the others
With a wide staring glaze
Their tummys not full
They wonder their fate
As we add more food to
An already full plate
Giving thanks without giving
Leaves me empty inside
And so with a prayer
God be my guide
To be gracious and give
Of myself and my time
I want to be part
Of a plan that's not mine
To listen in love
To act without pride
And draw others in need
Close to my side
Bowing heads to give thanks
Sharing bread for the day
Its all about giving
In your own special way.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
I Know That I Am Blessed, a poem by yours truly:
I know that I am blessed
Though life tells me otherwise.
I know that through these tests
In life there is a prize.
The prize is not material
But oh, the riches gained!
With grace thru faith ethereal
Life in Christ to be attained.
Believing in my Jesus Christ
I know that I am blessed
Day to day I'll fight the fight
To live with Him at rest.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
I owned up, explained that I was only doing as directed/instructed and otherwise told...but yet...I am named 'incompetent'. I apologized but...don't you know we can't afford to make mistakes....gee! I thought I was human...and the only PERFECT one walked the earth a long time ago.
Monday, November 19, 2007
Trying to decide between a broccoli salad or copper pennies to take to Mom's on Thursday...hmmm...maybe both.
Looking forward to seeing family that day...and maybe a day or two more. Thankful for family and for God's many blessings, I wish you all the best!
Sunday, November 18, 2007
I like to dip hot buttered toast in my hot tea for breakfast. The tea has sugar and milk.
There are some hymns I can sing without looking at the hymnal. I can't read music anyway, so I try to remember the words.
I love the hugs from my Sunday School kids, or having them sit in my lap during 'music' time.
Its great to have friends with whom you can cry. No explanations needed.
Turkey day is this week...so turkey sandwiches are not far behind! Gotta love 'em!
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Friday, November 16, 2007
It turns up when you don't really expect it.
It’s like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed.
The castle, well, it may not be a castle.
And it's not so important happy ever after, just that it’s happy right now.
See, once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away.
-from the TV Show "Greys Anatomy"
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
The "GuberBurger" (goo-ber-ber-ger)....a hamburger with peanut butter.
What's the weirdest food you've ever heard of? Would you try it?
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Random thought for the day....data is data...on a spreadsheet or in a system...and last time I checked, I am still human!!
Monday, November 12, 2007
Who fought for freedom and answered the call
Of Uncle Sam and the U.S. of A.
So many the ultimate price did pay
A parade to honor them, poppies of red
Refrains of soldier songs ring in my head
Proudly wearing their courage once new
They found so bravely for me and for you
Just saying 'thanks' doesn't seem quite enough
For those who braved the war on the front
A lump in my throat, I choke back a tear
And mourn for those that are no longer here
Until days when we see no flag folded such
Presented to a family with appreciation much
Pray for peace in our nation and peace in the world
And pray for the soldiers who our flag unfurled
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Church at 8:00, Sunday School at 9:15
Home by 11:00
Newspaper spread out on the table - ads to the left - all sections of the paper in order on the right, ready to be scanned at leisure - often with coffee or a coke
Lunch is simple - leftovers or a sandwich
Then the couch calls....DIY television and the zzzzs sneak in...and are welcomed....mmmmm.....nap!
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Random thought for today:
When your head hurts really bad,
and even the hair on your head aches,
a nice hug can help it all melt away.
And of course a couple of Advil or
Tylenol help too...and there's nothing
like a cup of hot tea...made perfectly
with a little sugar and milk. :-)
Friday, November 9, 2007
A watched phone never rings. Just as she gets lost in cooking dinner, catching up on crossword puzzles and paying bills, her mind wanders as she hopes to hear from him again. She longs to tell him how she feels. At last, “Dr. John’s office calling with your test results…”.
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
Monday, November 5, 2007
driving to work in daylight
home again at dusk
So...is your internal clock askew? Going to bed at what seems so early...then getting up even earlier? I am. Wish I had a 're-set' button.
Sunday, November 4, 2007
Saturday, November 3, 2007
Something about me that may be quirky...I sleep best in total darkness...no night light, no glow from the alarm clock, no moonlight streaming through the window, no illuminated light switch on the wall. This can be difficult as I use a c-pap with annoying little buttons that shine bright blue in the dark. I know what you might be thinking...close your eyes! Of course I do, but there is just something about a light being 'on' in the room that keeps me from sleeping well. Then there is the total opposite...where on a Sunday afternoon I can be totally in REM stage sleep right there on the couch...with football or a movie on the TV...and snoring like a freight train. Golf on TV can induce sleep fairly quickly...without even trying. Have you ever experienced that type of sleep where you think you're asleep but can hear things going on around you and try to respond, only to find out later you really were asleep...and talking or mumbling incoherently to those that might venture to actually stay in the room with you? I hate that. Ok, enough about sleep, its 8AM on the time change weekend.....ready to "fall back"????
Friday, November 2, 2007
And now, a two-fer, that is, two-blogs-in-one....da da da da!!!! (a drum roll of sorts???)
55 Fiction Friday:
“Harden your heart” I heard them say
You’ll look back on this one day
Perhaps a smile will come to you
And leave you feeling a little blue.
Blue is better than a heart torn in two
Your last attempt was nothing new
Turn and leave without goodbyes
Hope the tears don’t sting your eyes.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
A theme, huh? Something I was skeered of? When I was little, my Dad used to don a werewolf mask and come up to the windows outside to scare us...and it worked. So much so, I am not overly fond of masks...ones that cover the head entirely anyway! An eye mask...with feathers or other appendage...thats ok...but not the whole rubber with fake hair and other accessories...those creep me out.
BTW: NaBloPoMo = National Blog Posting Month = posting something every day for a month. Give it a try!!
Friday, October 26, 2007
Saturday, October 20, 2007
1. I have made homemade Halloween costumes for my kids that I thought were totally cute and imaginative - but my kids have recited several times about the 'special' costume I made them wear.
2. I like to write poetry - especially in an 'ode' form for special people to celebrate different occasions.
3. I like to sing - but rather make a 'joyful noise'.
4. Though I may not show it, I enjoy being romantic...and having that feeling returned.
5. I like to get up early on Saturday mornings to read the paper and work the crossword - and hate it when I can't get the whole thing done!!
Friday, October 19, 2007
And for my wordi-friend on the right...a tribute to HER poetry:
It seems that, my friend of blog- wordi-girl fame
You could be poet laureate – just one in the same
As that Seus-icall guy - as a tot you adored
By your rhyme and wording, I now am quite floored.
I love to write poetry – it’s just so relaxing
Especially after a day that’s been taxing
To take all your thoughts and give them a spin
And see the results give to someone a grin.
Keep up the rhyming with any words that you please
Putting forth that Seuss effort with a snicker or sneeze!
Get Grinched-Up and think of the Cat-In-The-Hat
Ah, the simple times – what could be better than that!!
Friday, October 12, 2007
Pitched forward in her seat and cupping her hand over her eyes to divert the sun, she felt compelled to scream. The noise was deafening, yet appealing, as she swelled with pride. Crisp, clean lines formed on the field below, then broke free chaotically. Vicious attacks were eminent as her son scrambled for safety. Touchdown!
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Though not from the skillet now
Blogged - less calories
Friday, October 5, 2007
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
I had just dropped my son off at work and took the 'back way' home to avoid 'traffic' on the main thouroughfare...when I rounded a corner and spotted an SUV stopped in the road - not on the curb, not at the stop sign...but about 3 car lengths ahead in front of me. I stopped and the next thing I know he is backing up. I start honking and honking my horn, he keeps coming. When I realize he is NOT going to stop, I turn my wheels hard to the left, trying to avoid him hitting me square across the front of the car.
His back left bumper hits my front right corner, grazing the hood and breaking the headlight, smashing the hood and bumper. He immediately gets out of his car and says "Its my fault! Its my fault! That was my dog over there (pointing to the lawn on the right). Here is my insurance card - you go ahead and file". I asked if what he gave me was the only card he had and he said, "Nah, I have plenty more". I gave him a card w/my name and number and off we went, no police report, no witnesses.
I immediately called my insurance when I got home, and they took the report and instructed me to call HIS insurance, which I did. The next day I get a call from his insurance wanting my statement.
At the end, the agent said "we have conflicting stories". Seems he didn't admit to saying it was his fault, didn't mention the dog, and said I kept approaching him when he was backing. All lies.
They say they will accept 70% liability, and I will be responsible for 30%. I said, excuse me? It was his fault - and repeated what he had said. Of course, now its all his word against mine. The agent says he discussed it with a manager, and thats all they would do.
Now I have to file on my insurance and be responsible for the deductible. After the car is fixed my insurance company will seek 100% reimbursement from him and his company as they will have a vested interest.
The guy who came to give an estimate for repairs said it totals about $3,000. I am still waiting to get my fax of the report that he said he would send today. THEN the check should be in the mail. In the meantime, I have a nice view of the trees on the right side of the street when I drive in the evening!!
Friday, September 21, 2007
“Good night” she said breathlessly. “Don’t go” he whispered, his voice quivering. Deep sighs surrounded them as the evening breeze tickled the trees. Her eyes turned toward the illuminated face of her watch and suddenly she remembered….his touch, his kiss…just one more sweet word from his lips…clink! Free minutes expired at 8 on the weekends!
Monday, September 17, 2007
Monday, September 10, 2007
I remember riding a train...yes, a train on train tracks...a choo-choo.... with Mom and Billy, and baby Beth in what was then the earlier edition of today's "pack and play". It was red tartan plaid...red with yellow and green lines. I don't recall where we were going or how old I was...but the train and the 'playpen' somehow stick in my mind.
I remember living in a duplex (of course I didn't know it was a duplex at the time) with a wooden door and a diamond-shaped window in the middle of it...looking outside and across the street to the little white house with a carport where we moved. Hardwood floors, linoleum, and a dinette set with vinyl seats...white with black flecks I think...and of course, the ever present high chair...with adjustable metal tray. I wonder how many of 6 went thru that highchair? I also remember pink sears-sucker shorts and top...and I think Beth matched mine in yellow...or maybe it was the other way around.
I remember Grandma & Grandpa's "rock house"...on a crowded little street...where we collected hail in plastic banana split trays one afternoon....wonder if they came from a 'dairy queen'? The porch was a cool place to play.
Great Grandma and Grandpa Bouten...Mom's grandparents...lived in another town somewhere in Missouri I think...I remember the black and pink tiled bathroom and the sweet smell of pink soap - which turned out to be dove as I recall. I remember riding with Great Grandpa in what was a "HUGE" black car (from a toddler's point of view of course)...and also picking up 'helicopters' from the ground...seeds from a tree with what looked like a blade-like leaf attached - that swirled around and around when you threw it in the air. Maybe from Mimosa trees?? Ooh...and acorns.... and digging in the dirt with a big metal spoon from the kitchen...and yes, eating dirt. I actually can remember eating dirt...or was it sand...and feeling it in the back of my throat. I also have a memory of playing on a wooden cover for a water pump, sort of like a flat with slats nailed together...and squishing spiders with bare feet....not quite sure of where that happened, but there were lots of kids around, at least brothers and sisters. Eating honeysuckle...and catching fireflies. Funny what is remembered, huh?
Sunday, September 9, 2007
In attempt to blog on my lunch hour last week, I discovered that blogs are now blocked. Thats no fun...cause lots of ideas seem to come at lunch lately!! Oh well, guess it will have to be 'home style' for now.
Don't know why, but my sleep has been restless lately, even with the mask in place. Seem to wake up about 1 or 2, and have a difficult time getting back to sleep...until the alarm rings at least! Isn't that the way it always is? The best sleep ever is always in between snooze alarms.
Visited one of my favorite blogs - now listed on the right - and played a "55 Friday" game. Lots of fun for people who love words. You'll have to see if you can find my 'short story'....one with only 55 words, but with characters, conflict and resolution. Too fun. Leave me a comment if you read the story!!
The other blog listed on the right is one for a sweet little boy named Paul, who lost his battle with cancer about a month ago. His parents and friends have updated the blog with inspirational words, thoughts and prayer, so if you get a chance, take a look. Cancer never sleeps.
Speaking of cancer, our "Relay for Life" event is just around the corner, and as always, sounds like a whole lot of fun to raise money for finding a cure. The 'theme' for the event is "dancing" for a cure..so our team is "Cancer-A-Go-Go". Go-go boots and all the stuff that goes with them! Maybe wigs...leather skirts...and dancin' 'the pony'. Whoo-hoo! Stay tuned for more!
Saturday, September 1, 2007
I am so happy my friend Karen was offered a new job! She has been so unhappy for a long time, and deserves all the best. I hope this will be the beginning of a wonderful opportunity.
I am looking forward to a little less stress at my job - if thats possible!! I guess I need to slow it down a bit and take time to learn a little at a time. I have been working early and late...and not paying enough attention to Ryan and the house....so a little self-imposed guilt comes along.
When did that happen? Is my memory selective? Is my imagination too active for reality? Do daydreams make everything plausible? When can I hope for reality to catch up with my dreams? Or is hope and dreams all there is?
The world goes by....things change....but also stay the same. All too cliche?? Probably. Finding words that aptly describe what I feel is difficult. Someone to understand what I am thinking, what I am feeling...without having a conversation....is that possible? Longing to look lovingly into the eyes of that someone.....or offer a whisper....or feel that breath on my neck... or those fingers entwined with mine....a soft kiss....all longing....with deep, deep sighs. Goosebumps.
Friday, August 31, 2007
Roller skating on Saturdays
Riding our bikes or walking to 'the' mall...Lake Air...even with our hair in curlers. Stopping in Walgreens grill for green jello, shopping for Dad's birthday and finding 'amethyst' cufflinks that fit nicely into our budget...for $5!!
Embroidering or having Mom sew patches on our chambray shirts to wear with our bell-bottom jeans...
Going to church camp...staying in cabin #4...coming home to a freshly painted yellow bedroom with orange trim..including our initial hanging over our bed and a huge bulletin board that covered most of one wall...
Sharing a bedroom....just about all the time
Taking our baby sister Amy for a walk....and (allegedly) making her cry so we could go back in the house. (we were so mean!)
Going to Lion's Park...and getting a burger from "Sandy's"....
Sharing our Datson 4-door car...with Grandpa's gas card we could use once a week to fill up for $5...
Fighting....with nail digging, pinching, hair pulling and all!! Yeow! Think I still have bruises...as the other 3 might have as well...
Cleaning the bathrooms...the first and the second...till they met with Mom's approval....
Making sugar cookies on Sunday afternoon....most of which were gone by that evening
Monday, August 27, 2007
Friday, August 24, 2007
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Ryan's middle name - Taylor - also belonged to my paternal grandmother's relatives, and I understand they had something to do with making Taylor Whiskey back in the day. Ryan means "little king" and he was the ruler at our house in his younger days, and of course, likes to still think so today.
Ryan has been a source of comfort for me. I was not a popular mom when telling the kids that divorce was eminent - they were so angry and cried. I remember Ryan saying he wanted "to cuss" he was so mad. I said OK, then he shouted "s*!#". When he gets upset or excited, he has trouble getting the words out - not stuttering according to the speech therapist - but a 'flow' problem. He knows what he wants to say, but has difficulty letting it 'flow'. Usually when he's having a hard time I'll tell him to 'calm down' and think about what he wants to say, then he does better.
When Ryan was in kindergarten, I got a call from the school principal. I was working at Sears and just picked up the call when I was paged in the middle of the home fashions department. The principal explained that Ryan and his friend Cameron were in the office for having a 'cussing match'. He put Ryan on the phone and of course I asked - "what did you say?" He answered me with that little lisp - "thit". I about laughed until I cried. He and the principal became the best of friends.
Ryan and Lindsey are best friends. They played well together...most of the time. He looked up to her quite a bit - and still does. Lindsey - ever the little mother - enjoyed her role of big sissy to her 'bubba'.
Ryan likes to make people laugh - especially Lindsey and me. We put up with his act because we like to laugh. Ryan and his friends can be go goofy - but they are good kids. Their parents love Ryan as if he was one of their own - and from what I understand - he is just as goofy with them as he is at home. I have heard stories of how Jordan's mom makes sure Ryan takes off his shoes and socks OUTSIDE...because coming inside with those stinkers would be deathly. She also has a towel for him and encourages him to take a shower or at least wash his feet. Sometimes a kid can listen so much more to a different mom.
I always tried to come up with different costumes for Halloween...but the kids did not like it one year....Ryan went as a bag of jelly beans ( a dry cleaning bag, folded in half and stuffed with balloons ) and Lindsey went as a sunflower...with seeds drawn all over her face. They still talk about that. Several folks had to ask Ryan what he was and Lindsey looked like the saddest flower on the planet.
In middle school, Ryan had a music class where he played the guitar. I got to see him do it a couple of times, and he enjoyed it very much. He has also enjoyed the idea of playing golf, riding his bike, skateboarding and lifting weights. He is into cars and of course, his cell phone - and text messaging has cost him some money! High school brought the ROTC and he is one handsome cadet. He moved up through the ranks in the short time he was there, and looks especially nice in his dress blues. The short haircut looks very sharp - and much to the joy of his grandparents - he has to keep it trimmed.
Ryan started working part time at 16 and his boss says he's one of his best workers. I'd like to think that he got his work ethic from me, but I am sure his Dad had something to do with it. Ryan likes to spend his money...and enjoys buying things for other people. Although his hat collection has grown, he has made some sensible purchases of school clothes and 'what not'. I have found I cannot take him shopping or make any suggestions as to what he should wear...but iIndsey and Joe have no trouble with that.
I just bought a car from Ryan's friend Shelton - a 98 Honda Accord. Ryan is so excited - and now really wants to get his driver license. He was saving me money by holding off getting his license - and I appreciate it. I bought it now because I thought it would be good for Ryan and something to work for. He wants to pay for his car and his insurance - though his eyes got big when I showed him the amount due for insurance - he thought it was for a month when it was really for 6 - but - thats the amount without him as a driver! Yipes!
Although he doesn't have a girlfriend at the time - I think - he has had one previously and Lindsey bugged the stuff out of him. So, maybe he really does have a girlfriend and won't say so. I am in no rush for that to happen - but hope when it does - he'll ask me for advice and bring her to the house. He probably won't, but I can hope.
Work has been....frustrating. Can't seem to grasp the complete picture of my role just yet...seems to jump from one thing to another....trying to keep up. My memory is evidently not what it used to be. I am taking lots of notes...and trying to remember what I did with them!! Seems like the only 'way' is her way - and I guess that's because she's had to do things, retrain folks and re-train so many times, that's the only way she knows. I sometimes get the hang of things - or so I think - then a 'gray' moment puts everything back at zero. I am used to being my own person on the job and leading more so than following, so it will take some time to get used to. I get frustrated when I can't make something happen immediately and completely correct. Then again, there are some 'anal' people who want to re-do, re-work, re-word and completely make my ideas their own. Editing their work comes fairly easy - and it usually does read more clearly - although $1,000 words are a part of acadamia. I am meeting some nice folks and learning the ropes. After another 6 months or so, I hope to feel alot more comfortable.
Monday, July 30, 2007
Friday, July 20, 2007
...when I'll stop wondering about things and just be happy in the here and now??
Fun things from this week:
Birthday for Nate...dinner at Ninfa's, drive-in move in Gatesville (yes, there really is one still open!), lots of laughs as we sung his 'song' to the tune of 'On Top of Old Smokey', still more with the trivia game by Kyle...Nana was a hoot!! Alison's picture puzzle was adorable and KeKe's Kake was wonderfully delicious...but, out til 1AM is a little late for a 'work' night!! I was so concerned that the drive in would be HOT, but actually, there was a nice little breeze and I had my bug spray, so I was just fine. The movie - "Transformers" - OK, but wanted to see "Ratatouillie". Oh well, it was fun.
Wednesday after work - shopping with KeKe for a few minutes, then off to choir. Fun (?) learning a new song (really an old one) to sing on Sunday. Out to dinner...first stop...Cheddars where there would be an hour 1/2 wait...no thanks!! On to Friday's....lots of fun and laughs...and we say buh-bye to Heather as she leaves for college. The choir will miss her beautiful voice, but maybe we can hear her from there!!
Thursday game night with Lindsey & Joe, Joe's Mom and niece & nephew. Lots of fun playing "mad gab"....and winning a few times!! Nice to talk and enjoy each other's company, and let Lindsey be the 'hostess'.
Heather's wedding is Saturday at 4, followed by dinner & dance. Lindsey & Joe are going, so maybe I'll tag along. I wouldn't mind getting out of town for a short visit...just restless I guess. The sleep mask is a little better...and have had some fairly nice dreams. If I could only keep from taking it off during the night, thinking its time to get up.
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
I told her I felt great - but might crash later. We did some errands and I did get overheated, but did NOT take a nap!! This is exciting because sometimes I would take a 2 1/2 to 3 hour nap, then still go to bed on time.
One of the benefits of the mask is that the machine has a humidifier built in, but I only use it on the 'cool' setting...cause Texas is way to hot. The cooler months - I might use a warmer setting.
I have adjusted the mask to allow for sleeping on my side. I do not generally sleep on my back (unless a nap on the couch creeps in!!) :-)
I modeled the mask for the kids - and they had a good laugh, as did K and A. When I answer the phone - or try to - with the mask on - I can't really talk, so I'll have to pull it off. Its getting easier, but the maintenance on the machine can be a little tedious. Its all worth it, though, to get good sleep. My son does not hear me snoring and the instances of waking up have become quite limited.
Just the other day I said that my dreams were fewer...but really I think I am not remembering them as well because I sleep more deeply. There are SOME dreams I can recall in total, but again, perhaps not in much detail. I can still remember the people mostly...and those people generally know who they are!! :-)
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Lindsey was the first grand-daughter born on her Dad's side of the family, and second on mine. She was blessed to have four Godparents: Stephanie, Michael, Beth and Carrol. She charmed her Aunts & Uncles, Great Aunts & Uncles, Grandparents and cousins from day one. Aunt Millie thought she was pretty special and loved to have her visit in Irving.
As a baby she liked most any food she tried...including creamed spinach and squash. Poor baby didn't have much hair until she was a year old...and then she grew it long and usually had a ponytail.
She loved playing with her 'babies', including a 'cabbage patch kid' that her great aunt Mary Wanda made for her. She would put them down for a nap and cover them up with cloth diapers in a circle all around her in her room. Music kept her happy, as did singing those little nursery songs and Sunday school favorites.
Lindsey loved school...and playing school when she wasn't at school. Writing and drawing and reading all the time. Lindsey's teachers loved her as she was always a good student...from daycare through high school...I think she got some of that from me! Can't saw that brother Ryan appreciated that fact, though.
First 'injury' was when she fell and hit her head on a drawer pull in the kitchen on Watt Street. Shook Mom and Dad up for sure...and even left a little scar. Her first word - "ball", followed closely by "no"...to no surprise! It seems Lindsey's fate to continue to be 'accident prone'...as she has suffered with broken bones multiple times. Once, while running cross country...and I insisted it was only shin splints. Talk about putting a guilt trip on Mom. Anyway, she continues to have a least one small 'accident' a day...whether running into a wall or tripping over her own feet.
Lindsey has always been a sweet girl - even when the teenage years came around. Her heart was broken at least once (that I know of) - but she seemed to rally even then. She has always been a little shy but only until you get to know her. She can be a real cut-up, especially with her 'brudder'. They both keep me laughing.
I am a proud Mom...and now Mom-in-Law. Lindsey will always be my 'Baby Girl'. XXOOXXOOXXOOXXOOXXOOXXOOXXOOXXOOXXOOXXOOXXOO
Friday, June 22, 2007
She started cooking..some kind of chicken dinner..when the ladies started to arrive. They were dressed similar to Aunt Bea from the Andy Griffith Show, with cute little hats. I started to seat them and hand out their menus, when one of the ladies complains that she doesn't want to sit at that particular table, but wants to sit with some friends at another table, but there were no extra chairs. When I explained that all the seats were taken, but that she was welcome to visit at the other table until the food arrived, she became angry and tore the menu in half.
I went into the kitchen and Mom said they'd have to do without the appetizers, cause she was in the middle of the main course and couldn't go back. I went out into the dining area and saw the lady who tore the menu sitting at another table while another guest stood by. This lady had already complained to Mom about the appetizers and fixed herself a salad while she was in the kitchen.
I went back to the kitchen to ask Mom about this lady, and picked up some glasses of tea to serve. I promptly went back to that lady and dumped a glass of iced tea on her head, then walked off. She was angry, but kept sitting there as she had no ride since she came with the group. The other ladies were laughing and having a good time. The kitchen was small and hot, but the food was a hit with the rest of the group, and they said they would be back. I was glad to see the group go.
Thursday, June 14, 2007
I have not been sleeping deeply though, according to my doctor, as he has no other explanation for my being tired all the time. I am not rested when I wake and continue to yawn off and on during the day.
I have been for one sleep test...complete with wires on my head and other appropriate places on my body...no drugs...and a dark, dark room where I could be watched by cameras that were watched by technicians who recorded all the machine findings. Guess what...my test results said my sleep test was ABNORMAL! Well duh! I think I knew that already...but now I am up for another test, this time with a c-pap mask. How they are going to attach that with all the other connections I'll have should be quite an experience!! And it should make me sleep....deeper??? We'll see. Oh the watching and recording they will do.
I have a recurring nightmare about not being able to find 'the baby'...sometimes a child, sometimes an animal...who needs to be fed. I have actually walked into my children's room, looking for the baby, asking "where's the baby?", sometimes sobbing. Hmmm...hope I don't' have that dream tonite.
Other dreams...well, THOSE are ones I'd like to have more often...the kind from which I don't want to wake up....the kind I definitely remember....gee, I'm getting sleepy just daydreaming now!!
So, perhaps I'll dream...and perhaps there will be REM...but if not...guess there is always the chance for more tests!! I dream about those tests...go figure!!
Dream from last night as best I can recall:
Returning from a trip and see a tornado beginning to form over the city, Karen points out that it is near the Waco water tower. Arrive in town to see much damage, flooding, etc. Walking down the street, looking toward river, see lots of different types of shoes floating in the river, then begin to see family I know, only it is several years in the future. I see Gavin (now 4) who looks to be about 8 or 9, running around in a football uniform; I see Katie and Hannah, looking very grown up - but none of them have on shoes. Karen, Kyle, Alison, Nate and I attempt to drive across a flooded street, now a small river - Kyle is driving Karen's Expedition - we land in the water like the flume ride at 6 Flags, and make it across, only to find a very narrow road. We continue on this road and come across a building that is mostly in shambles, but people are gathered there to eat..its sort of like a restaraunt on the beach. I run into Felix from Sears who takes me into a smaller room where lots of folks are sitting and he introduces me, and I tell him I am looking for my kids. The group of us continue to look at the destruction left from the tornado and realize its not getting any better any time soon. I see Stephanie and she points to what looks like Jim's truck outside a window, explaining that he's been living in it for about a year, and that the kids don't talk to him, but when I go out a door and towards the truck, he is sitting on the bumper, his face looking very swollen, eyes barely open, eating a big slice of watermelon. We don't speak, but when I turn away, I hear Lindsey call my name. Along what seems to be a boardwalk, she comes out from underneath and asks where I've been, and that Ryan has been looking for me. Next thing I know, Laura is walking me through a busy area - with lots of people - and explaining who is where - including Jazi who is giving birth to three babies - all of whom just developed in her stomach - and are really tiny. We go into what looks like a haunted house, and I see the blind tenor - who's name I can't recall at the moment, but he sings for me and we walk around the haunted house together. In the house is a little store where you can purchase games, etc., and they are selling a mini-version of cranium for about $14. I told them it was a rip off cause I knew they could get the same thing at the dollar store for about $7.
I can only guess as to where some of these elements in the dream came from...some are more obvious to me than others. I am writing this a good 7 hours after waking up - and thats all I can recall right now.
Saturday, June 2, 2007
Laughing - and laughing some more! Laughing til my stomach hurts or I cry....
Writing poetry - from serious to fun - haiku, iambic pentameter and more. I work best 'under pressure' to get one done for a special occasion. Rewriting songs is fun - for choir parties, anniversaries or birthdays
Decorating - that is 'bag' painting, sponge painting, rearranging and watching all the home improvement shows on TV such as Trading Spaces and Decorating Cents; I am good at spending other people's money on decorating, too...just ask Debbie or Laura; arts and crafts have been a favorite for a long time
Shopping - browsing in 'antique' or 'junk' stores; Kitchen stores - like Crate & Barrel stores are a favorite, as are other 'cooking' stores; resale stores are fun, too, plus the occasional garage sale.
Cooking - for my family or friends, trying a new recipe or an old 'stand by'; as the kids will attest, I don't "do" dumplings very well...but I try (or used to!!)
Games - with my 'game night group' or family. Word games like "balderdash" are a favorite, but so is chicken foot, password and scrabble; computer games are good, too...like 'tumble bees' and solitaire; cards are not my favorite, but I like to play kings-in-the-corner...
Sunday School - teaching the little ones and sharing Bible stories. Art projects with them are always interesting. Hugs "in the hall" are priceless.
Musicals - TV, movies, high school or church - and singing along has to be an option!
Movies - at the cinema, snuggling up with someone special
People watching - wherever the opportunity presents itself, and imagining what the people are doing/saying or going is fun
Exploring - new places - or hearing someone describe a place they have visited and enjoyed in a way I can imagine myself there
Daydreaming - about a project, a person or place (this will often turn into a nap on a Sunday afternoon!!)
Planning - a party or special event, then seeing it through and watching people enjoy
Photography - either mine or someone else's work - putting them in albums and arranging with comments and quotations; memory books are lots of fun
Calligraphy - just my own style - but fun to do for others, such as wedding/party invitations or Christmas cards (I got interested when my 6th grade teacher, Mrs. Aman, did some signs in her room in that style.)
Bookstores - browsing thru the stacks and stacks of books, pausing to read an excerpt or so; sitting in the comfy chairs; making special purchases for gifts
Watching Baylor Lady Bear basketball - I got hooked after starting to work at BU; though I've never been to a game, the TV version is not too bad at all
Foot Massage - I enjoy giving and receiving these!! Professional or not, always enjoyable. Pedicures are excellent and a must have for summer toes. Guess I'd have to say the same for back rubs - giving and receiving - lotion or not!
House Hunting - just for fun, seeing how new homes are built and enjoying old homes as well
Driving - on a trip or just to work - not always taking the same route - and enjoying the scenery along the way. Driving around town or in the country, looking at the stars and moon, especially on a cool evening.
Visiting - with friends or family, and lots and lots of laughter. Sharing stories, old and new, reminding ourselves of the way things used to be ...or can become
Ellipses - I enjoy....always....writing with ellipses! Something about those little dots....leaving something to the imagination or...? Business letters don't allow these nearly often enough, but emails- oh yeah!
Singing - goofy songs, goofy lyrics - "I want a hippopotamus for Christmas" - and singing like no one is listening, though they might be and laughing right along with you. Teaching the kids old songs from girl scout camp - "Sipping Cider" and "Pink Pajamas" or "Ain't it Great to be Crazy" is lots of fun.
Old Movies - tear- jerkers or comedy - black and white - I love 'em all!! The holidays always bring some on TV...and they are great to add special feelings to the season.
Hugs and Kisses...and not the Hershey's kind....
Goosebumps....from the afore mentioned items...
Counting my blessings
Watching the rain...or snow...
Having a glass of wine or margarita...and relaxing
Sharing a yummy dessert...like a skillet brownie from El Chico
Wishes on falling stars
Phone calls...just because
Keeping up with friends
Sending cards...or writing letters
Water gun fights with the kids
Drawing on the sidewalk
Crossword puzzles....not too hard!
Wrapping gifts in a special way...making up gift baskets
Sleeping in...at least until 7!
Cooking Breakfast...omelets are a specialty! Breakfast for dinner-yummo!
Folding clothes...right out of the dryer...or ironing with just enough starch
A great haircut...
Watching a fire...in the fireplace...or outdoors...just staring into the flames, poking the wood around...don't worry...no arson here.